Be Inspired, Be Inspiration

i really encourage you to visit this site: http://alicepyne.blogspot.com/ it's gone viral and quite the internet/blog sensation and it breaks my heart.  this brave 15 year old girl is losing her battle to terminal cancer and has created a blog to document her time left and has created a bucketlist. it's incredibly sad and inspiring at the same time.  There are ways to help, and even follow her blog so you can monitor how she's doing.  Her name is Alice and she is truly a very brave and loveable teenager with an unfortunate illness.

Read it...

annoying...doesn't being to explain it...

Miss Me?

well it's been a while since i've tapped into this here ol' blog...and i need to replenish my loyalty here so i am going to be getter at it. 

Some things you missed?

Lady Gagas album isn't out yet, (May 23rd for all you numb nuts monsters) however, she has released almost every track off the album already... surprised?

I received my early birthday present...BRITNEY SPEARS on July 12th, section 15, so i'll be nice and close to the stage...thank you!!!

I went to Frightmare Weekend and got to hang out with Sig Haig, Angus Brimm, Dieter Laser, Malcolm Mcdowell and Robert Englund, as well as hang out with William, Amy and My sister all weekend and drink lots, see lots and live lots. it was one of the highlights of my year.

Lucy came to town, a mild mannered weekend, i might add.  It wasn't a typical crazy weekend, but we did have fun in Dallas on saturday night (May 7th) with my friend Elliot.  She had her first Pinkberry :) yogurt, that is ;)

i found more of my original poetry, so i will be posting those soon :) but i've been so tired....sorry, it's hard being me sometimes ;)

Friday the 13th, i went to the haunted house with erika, my friends Brock and Richard and then had the utmost pleasure of seeing my dearest friends Katina and Stacey for a wine induced round table discussion and catching up!

This friday May 20th, my friends Wes and Krystin are getting married....down in Palestine so i'll be attending those festivities.

what else?

right now....hottest music

head over to http://www.gorillavsbear.net/ for some of the best songs out there, that are NOT lady gaga! since she is releasing a song every 5 minutes, i figured this could help alleviate the insanity!

Arcade Fire @ Backyard, Austin, TX

Copy & Paste...Gaga steals Taste!

http://www.kontraband.com/pics/26563/Lady-Copypasta/

NUFF SAID!!

dare to be original, dare to replicate originality!

Boot Camp Cashed

Boot Camp class at LA Fitness....NO JOKE....do not attempt this if you are expecting to have an easy work out your "FIRST" time. I didn't....Shelby didn't....it was a nightmare. and i'm sore today :( very sore, like i want an ICE Bath.  However, to suck it up, Shelby and I will be going again tonight and doing another class. We need to stay motivated.

My life in writing

This is an original, one i wrote at 1:47 am on 12/27/2002, i remember the day/night to a tee. i remember what i was feeling, thinking and even wearing.  I spent christmas by myself. i was miserable. hence the title.

He's Misery

Misery speaks in a way i can't relate

and he dilutes his reality with that which i hate

but his spontenunity refreshes all logic

and in retrospect reflects on all nostalgic

He cries in pain not self inflicted

and avoids withdrawls because he's addicted

he withers away and searches for clues

that'll redirect his path to you

Misery beats, tortures and mends

corrupts the habitual, and ceases to end

devious routes in which he'll travel

truth be told he'll soon unravel

Mindless acts of pure indulgence

equals harmful signals of his convulsions

sympathy embarked a trail unseen

unhappiness apparent and pleasure between

Misery bleeds though his blood not read

and silence a trend and soon he'll be dead

the painful bliss that haunts our souls

are signs of weakness of no self control

Decisive acts that prove stability

leave questions of doubt and authentic ability

counterfeit feelings and false apprehensions

misery speaks beyond comprehension.

tell what you think. i'm curious. i've never shared this with anyone. i'm curious. (repeat)

Stay Tuned....

Judas?

well much anticipation has been made recently, of the next released single by Lady Gaga, since the success of Britney recently, though i don't think those two are competing, i think the fan bases are.  However, since Britney has just appeared on Rihannas remix of S&M, Britney is even more all over the place.

Well Gaga surprised her fans with a release of her next single, Judas.  Starting to sound a lot like some of her previous work... and i'm not saying that because i'm not a fan, but because i enjoy music and i don't quite see the appeal. doesn't sound groundbreaking to me. tell me what you think!!!

http://gagadaily.com/2011/04/song-premiere-lady-gaga-judas/#more-17642

Deepest Apologies

well, i did what i thought i would end up doing and that was fall off the "updating my blog" wagon and just realized i haven't posted since 4/4/11.  Not exceptable.  So much stuff has happened and will be happening that i need to catch everyone up.  I also found the very poem that i fell in love with that i wrote in 2002...it was when i realized i want to write, very few in more then 1 or 2 have ever seen it. :) so i'll be sharing that as well.

I'll be updating the road trip endeavors.....and funny quotes, and before i do... Marcus, so glad you came. you were the perfect roadtrip companion.

Kim gets married tomorrow, sad to say that she did not bulk up with creatine so she'll still have her devilishly sleek and slender figure with legs to die for :)  I'll post pics and updates from that as well.

I also went to the Raveonettes concert on 4/11 with Pumps (heather hardgrove) OH YEAH SHE'S BACK.... man it has been a while since i've updated. 

Sleigh Bells is next friday, as well as Willies birthday celebration, so excited. wow, have lots to catch up on.

UCONN Men's Basketball # 1 baby, winning the national championship :)

Stay Tuned....

First Piece Of NEW Writing...in almost 6 years

nothing special, nothing long and thoughtful and definitely not my finest, but i was writing over the weekend, and came up with this: i didn't know how to finish it, i don't have a title for it and i 'm not sure what to make of it. but it's a little poem i wrote. enjoy it.

It’s heavy, when the darkness falls and light as a feather when redemption calls

It’s force fed sympathy and reaches a brim, but sinks with solitude when asked to swim

It’s weak in the knees, a feeling so trite, but gathers it’s strength when its told to fight

It’s bruises are blue and swelling is black, it’s lost in translation there’s no coming back

It follows the shadows that conquers your fears, it softens it’s touch to dry your tears

It lay inert it often plays dead, but defenses are down and theres trouble ahead

The throbbing of guilt, the panic arises, the salt in the wounds like spoiled surprises.

The scent of relief is almost as crude, as the feelings of freedom begin to seclude

Chornicles of Trouble: To Chinati and Back

Stay tuned... as much as i can, i'll be posting pictures, and what were up too on this blog while on our roadtrip this year.  I didn't have a blog last year, it would have come in handy, as it was a trip to remember, but i anticipate this to be quite the trip. so fasten your seatbelts...or ready your finger on the mouse to navigate from my blog in boredom, but either way, it's going to be one helluva trip :)

Marfa tonight....i hope the Weather Channel doesn't find us again.

M83 - Skin of the Night

blink-182 - I Miss You

This song was so instrumental in my friendship with my best friend, Heather. Things aren't the same anymore. things are so different, so vastly distant and i hope we find our way back. We tell each other we will, and it hasn't really happened. I take a lot of the blame for that, i guess it's just hard to want to be what i used to be to her when i know she's taking a step forward into her life with a wonderful guy. i'm not her only guy anymore. When i think of this song, i think of all the times we sang this, when we were sad, or the times we sang it because we were together . I think of the times we used to say "who the fuck is jack and sally?" i think life in New England, life in Connecticut. I think that it's fair to say i've never had a friend like heather and the prospect that after 6 years of dilligent trying and precious efforts made by both parties that we are worn out with exhaustion of maintaining a very deep, personal and spiritual connection that started with little to no effort. Heather, if you are reading this, we've been through a lot, together and alone.. you and ross are so amazing together. i like him, i want to spend more time with him, but most importantly i want you to be happy, and i have to accept that i am not going to be 100% repsonsible for that. i'm not going to be the one you come to first, i'm not the one thats going to make you laugh when you need it, or take care of you even when you don't need it. I thought being 2200 miles away would be the biggest problem. After 6 years, i think we've surpassed any "obstacle". I know you are probably reading this wondering why i'm not telling you this personally. I think one reason is because, i need to become personal on my blog, i need invoke trust and appreciation for those who take the time to read this. and the second reason is because i truly think you already know this. I think these thoughts have gone through your head. It scares me that it's a possibilty we both feel fatigued. Maintaining our own personal lives was never easy when we were together, haha, and it's more difficult being half a country away. Regardless, i never skip a beat when someone asks who is the one friend who means the world to me. i've met some incredible people as of late, and wouldn't change that for the world, just like your admirable friendship with Jennie, who is an outstanding personality and a real gem of a friend for you. I'll be the first, i'm very jealous of your friendship. Anytime, you vent or go to another friend, i get jealous and i am starting to think it's not my place too anymore. They deserve my respect. You are my best friend, always will. No matter where i am in life. no matter who i meet in life..they cannot hold a candle to the history and passion we've had as best friends. So point blankly, i miss you. i miss my best friend.

So Much To Say

Well we completed our concealed handgun class on saturday. all ten hours. :( but it was fun, except i'm a horrible aim. i still passed, so thats great. but i learned a lot of valuable things about guns, the laws, the exceptions, the thrills, the importance of self defense, the mind set, it was very informative. So we'll be applying for Texas and Utah, because with Utah, we get 4 more states for receiprocation.  WA, MN, OH and WV.

i also got to see Michael, Danielle, Katina and Stacey after the class, we went to Splittsville in Arlington  highlands. it was nice but i got to be honest, i was extremely exhausted from the class so unfortunately i didn't stay out long, but it was still nice to see everybody.

Sunday- yeah didn't do much AT ALL. lunch, sam's and walmart were the extent of my productivity.  I felt horrible cause erika wanted to go out and maybe get a tatt and do some shopping. she deserves it, she's been working her butt off. I admire erika's work ethic, she's a beast. she's been hampered with no car so doing all that she's doing without a car is amazing, i know how she feels believe me. i'm proud of her none the less.

VCU in the final four? really? Uconn in the final four (bias, but i put them in my final four so that was good) UNC losing to Kentucky- blah and Butler? that means it's a 3, 4, 8 and 11 left in the Men's NCAA tourney. thats crazy. 

SASSY GAY FRIEND - Eve

SASSY GAY FRIEND - The Giving Tree

SASSY GAY FRIEND - Othello

Brutal Honesty

this thought occured to me recently and i feel i need to share it. 

Tv Shows and Movies....we all watch them, we relate to them, we identify with the characters, situations and what not, but one thing i noticed that you don't see in movies or on tv shows is flactulence.  yes...i mean farting. The one natural, albeit, semi replusing bodily function, we never hear a character break wind.  i mean you know those embarrassing moments we have, where we laugh so hard or cough so hard and one squeaks on by...and you and your friends can laugh at the mortification peacefully? i just wonder why it is we never see characters do it. i mean when someone does, i always tell them "whatever, it's natural, everyone does it....and don't lie...everyone does it."  but thats a lie....not everyone does it. those people that we admire and laugh at on TV don't... those actors capable of making us cry and get angry and laugh with don't do it. whats the deal?

sorry this was a bit extreme but someone had to say it.

Elizabeth Taylor Dead @ 79

RIP.

feel better

i got my eye infection today- NOT HAPPY! oh well, i have drops and will be picking up more today.

but about the Brit Brit post, i feel better ranting on my "home turf" like my blog then i do on FB...most people who don't know i'm gay, don't need to know and for those who do and don't approve of my life style....well you can sit on my middle finger...and though i'm not flamboyant at work (as my personal life is just that) i do get gay for Britney Spears like any other normal homosexual...which btw, are normal people too. believe me, if i could spend half the time being disgusted at some of the hetero on hetero action that goes on....man, some people have disgusting significant others, as they do disapproving of my life, i think it'd be a wash.  So, my point is, i love me some Britney, i don't consider myself a pop fan, but will make an exception for the legendary miss britney spears ;)

Brit Brit

Brit Brit's album has fully leaked on the internet, Femme Fatale, which is scheduled for release March 29th (next tuesday) has been leaked online. I've heard every song and wow, i thought it might be hard to top her last two efforts, and don't play,  Blackout was a hot cd, trainwreck or not. like it or not, thats my opinion.  However, i've already pre-ordered my deluxe version of her new album and just in time for the roadtrip...OH YES BOYS...Some Britney Spears for the souls :)

anyway, if you haven' theard anything besides, Till The World Ends and HIAM, you're in for a real realllll treat :) 

pre order now or listen online, but you should still buy it. :)

Golden Girls - Blanche & Rose as nuns

Are these really funny thoughts...

So i was driving back home last night after making a pit stop after work...they were brieft but hilarious thoughts and may no longer be funny, but i'll share anyway.

First thought:

I'm driving down 35 up around Meacham BLVD, and as i'm driving, i notice i'm speeding, and that cop car is ahead of me (well 2 cars) so i slow down and proceed to drive the speed limit, i notice the cop car switch lanes which woud put it next to me soon, and as i'm driving all paranoid for speeding, i notice it's an old cop car...a used cop car, with not decals on the side of the car, but just an old cop car, and as i'm all paranoid, i see a girl maybe 19 texting on her phone, driving this boat.  I'm thinking "you stupid b**ch!!!!" i'm freaking out and you're on your phone lolly gallying around on your cell phone driving an impounded police car...no one else see anything wrong with that? i wonder how many people she's fooled driving that automobile. lol.

second thought:  while i was driving, i was playing this extremely rad tune from the band Gayngs called "Crystal Rope" and as i was driving, drifting off into my own world.. i thought, this is a really cool tune to blast...and when i drive by people at a slower pace or stop at a red light and people look over, they are going to hear this song and be like "that guy is playing a really cool song..." i for one second, thought to myself, "i'm that cool guy, that when you get into his car, he's playing this song that just sticks with you, and you're like "man, this is a rad song, he's got great taste in music" so i was elated with myself and proceeded down the highway doing my best Wooderson (only some will get that reference) impersonation, thinking wow, this song really makes me cool... but on the contrary, it makes me pathetic that i was even in that state of mind, sad really! i realize that now. haha.

third thought:

driving down the road...you see like old chevy caprices or grand marquis....raised with giant tires (sort of like this here)  and i can't help but wonder, i mean  when i think about this it baffles me, but are sooooo culturaly diverse that people like me, are unaware that owners of this car above, really got together with a group of people, said "this is what i wanna do, help me out" and their friends were okay with it? they agreed it would look tight if they did this, and they aren't the least bit embarassed on the highway as people like me are passing them.  Are the owners of cars like this so oblivious to people like me snapping photos of their cars and uploading them to facebook? do they really think people are NOT laughing? or is it they just don't car because they like it? i can't figure it out?

Not done ranting, but i am for this very moment.

stay tuned....

Ode To Courtney Love

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We meet again, Monday.

well this was a great weekend, i didn't get to do everything i wanted to do...like watch A Serbian Film...but i will save that for later this week.  I also get go for my CHL this weekend, sort of exciting :)

Saturday we went out and celebrated Stephanie and Ben's birthday. it was a great night. Met a lot of cool new friends :) Annie and I got to hang out and have some much needed Crazy on Crazy time that was much needed.  It was a lot of fun, and i was the DD (;) I even did karaoke...yes....Jennifer and I sang "Doll Parts" by Hole...much to everyones surprise, we were pretty good....(awful) lol.

Yesterday...NOTHING.. i did nothing... I HAVE NOT EVENTFUL TO WRITE....

although, this is my week to run the FTS calls this week and i'm not excited, only because i feel i'm the one that is furthest behind on knowledge...i'll be spending all day familiarizing myself.  How was everyones weekend? anything exciting?

GaGa Mocks Texas...

March Madness...

First big upset... #13 Morehead ST. vs #3 Louisville. 62-61.  Louisville's Knowles out with an injury. Bad News and i hope he's okay.

already, my bracket is shit.

My reason for smiling, my reason for loving

Gayng Signs....

the band Gayngs...yes, please download, youtube, grooveshark, itunes this band and listen to their Relayted album. it's beyond amazing.. it's beyond anything i could have imagined.  However, it came out in May of 2010. i can't believe i'm just jumping on board now....however, i'm glad i did.  If you work in an office and on the computer all day, this album makes staring at your computer so much more tolerable.  one of my favorite websites for music, Pitchfork.com gave the album a 6.2, which i think is ludarcris... this album is sensational. i strongly recommend.

Overboard

So last night, i brought my sister to work at Fridays in Burleson.  I didn't want to just drive there and drive back, so i decided to text chris who works in Cleburne and see if he wanted to meet me for a couple pre st. patty's day beers.  He said yes, so Erika and i headed on down there.  I had a couple stellas...oh wait, let me tell you what we did first.

Erika chugged a 4 Lokos (before work) she said it helps here get through the night and i, a glass of wine.  Then we went down to Fridays, where i had only 2 Stellas. ate an appetizer to soak up the alcohol before driving then went home.  Well since i was home, i was like, why not have another glass of wine, which turned into "why not finish the bottle of wine" So chris went to bed and i stayed up to play NBA2K11 on wii.  I love that game. i created a pretty sick team, i'm the New Orleans Hornets but with my own all stars.  I have three sensational guards in Chris Paul, Derrick Rose and Deron Williams. I added Brandon Roy, OJ Mayo, Kevin Durant, Larry Bird (yes you can pick former stars), Emeka Okafor, Matt Carroll, Peja Stajockivch (Sp) and, Darius Songallia. I've got a pretty sick team.  Anyway, so i played that game and while i was playing, i finished my wine.  So i when the game was over, i went to the kitchen to make me a peanut butter and jelly sandwhich, which i proceeded to inhale, sat back down, watched The Nanny on Nick At Nite and managed to pass out in the recliner.  I then woke up at 3:52 this morning. yep. so then i had to go upstairs, crawl in bed and thank god that our Tuesday and Thursday morning conference calls moved from 7:30-8:30 to 8:30-9:30, so i decided to sleep in a bit this morning, but then there was an accident on 35 so i was late anyway.  Usually i don't like getting to work later then 7:30, so i can leave at 4:30, assuming nothing is keeping me here, but today being St. Patty's day and knowing i'm probably going to go out after work, i decided to come in later then usual, stay until 5, as most of my co workers will be here untl then too and we can all go together :) so that was my last night...i don't anticipate any craziness tonight, but tomorrow is friday, i suppose i'll have more stories for you.

Stay Tuned....

Tuesday Continued

So yesterday was as bad if not worse then i imagined. It was a nightmare.

First, at work Tuesdays are my busiest, regardless. But i had to leave at 4:00 to get to Hurst on 121 for Hiley Mazda, at 4:30- nightmare # 1 because 35 and 121 interchange is a freaking trainwreck.  So i'm late out of my meeting, don't leave work until 4:24- no way i can get to hurst by 4:30. pissed off, i say.

Then i get there, i have to wait an hour. Thats not horrible except i have to get back on 121 and 35 to go pick up my sister so she can parrallel park in my car to renew her license with Texas.  at 5:15 i have to be back on the road. NOT FUN.

Then i get Erika, we go to the DMV, i let her play in my car, and i get a phone call.  "uh, hi, this is Evan from Hiley Mazda, um, i found 3 screws that belonged to your car for the skid plate (i think he said) and i need to bring it back to my car immediately."  So i'm screwed because it's 6:47 pm and he's telling me that i need to be in Hurst by 7:30. ARE YOU KUCKING FIDDING ME???? thats ridiculous.  So i ask erika if she wants to go for a ride. We go back to Hiley Mazda, wait another 25 minutes.  Then because i'm already in Hurst and it's 7:37 i need to eat something.  I didn't eat the previous night because of the whole Uverse and their POS boxes erasing all of my years worth of recordings.  So erika and i went to Red Robin by Northeast Mall. 

Before i proceed with how delicous our margaritas and burgers were, let me back track.  Earlier in the day, i had asked my friend Kim what she was doing for the night. she said "we have bryons nephew and niece, so go look at a house, take them to dinner and a movie or playstation" i said "where are we eating..haha j/k... i kid i kid". 

So i get a text from her once erika and i get to the bar at red robin.  it's from Kim "Red Robin Sucks" and sure enough i looked around and i was like "wtf" and i told erika and so we started looking around looking for Kim or Bryon. couldn't find them. then all of a sudden i see Bryons head....and they were there. what are the odds, we eneded up at the same restaurant, which is even more weird, because neither of us really live near there.   anyway.. that was my coincidence for the night/day.

I am also thinking of going up in a few weeks to my best friends fathers birthday.  I need to see my heath! we need to reconnect. we have been so busy in our lives and we have both been occupied by our relationships, that Tim and Heather haven't really been Tim and heather. i miss her and i need to see her.  So hopefully i can make a trip up. if not, it will be sooner then later.  So i'm trying to get all of that organized.

Tuesday is my bluesday

I hate tuesdays...i think i've said that before...i really do. but i got to see an old friend (and former co worker) Kimberly (i'm Timberly) Murillo.  Aww, Kim, you look fantastic...Hawaii is treating you very well :) Enjoy your stay in Texas for the next week or so.

SXSW is this week, of course i can't go. I am not in a position to take time off, I don't have the money to spend and all i want to do is experience the crowds, and energy in Austin. I don't think it's going to happen, but i'm not sure. If i do, i will be sure to write all about it. If not, then yeah, i'll probably be back on Monday apologizing for not writing anything during the weekend.

March Madness is upon us. I have filled out my brackets for Mens and Women's games.  Yes, i watch Women's basketball too. So say what you will, mock me and make fun of me, but i watch college basketball.  I don't limit myself to which gender.  In my Men's, i have Duke, Uconn, Pittsburgh and Ohio St. (i think, i need to look at it again) regarless, i'm hoping for two big east teams.  Women's, i have Uconn, Texas A&M, Tennessee and Stanford.  Praying for a UCONN VS. TENNESSEE semi's on 4/3. 

Hmm, think now i'm going to grab lunch. i don't have time to go to the gym today, so today, will be the day. i will work extra hard. i'm pushing Kimmeh to go to the gym, because i know she wants to tone, though she has a great body, but she is getting married in 4 weeks.  Because i'm using her weddding date as a "get skinny date" for me, i should work extra hard tomorrow. :)

Stay Tuned...

GaGa Gone Wild

Lady Gaga was in Dallas last night, as she hit up Round Up, supposedly her favorite (gay) bar in Dallas.  This would be her second appearance, i believe in the past year.she will be doing her concert tonight, for those who care and are going.  Personally, i'll contain my excitement for when Britney Spears comes..then you'll see me acting a fool in Dallas. until then i'm sure you can hear (horror) stories about his..i mean her, performance last night. She performed "Born This Way" on the dacnce floor. I saw a friends Video of her last night. thought i'd share.

Monday...We Meet Again....

well somehow i've let yet another weekend lapse by without saying a word on my blog, however, i have a good reason this time.  With the exception of the Spring Forward DLST we had to deal with, this weekend was a good one, and a very productive one.  I woke up at 8:30 on Saturday morning, opened all the windows to get the nice spring breeze through, blasted my music and cleaned the house, top to bottom. (cue the 8th grade snickers)
I was able to get all cleaning done, go for lunch, run to Sams, stop at Radioshack and get my new iphone 4, thats the wonderful trade in program they have of (trading in an older iphone, and giving you money to put towards your new iphone) i got $75 so i only paid $140 for my iphone. good deal. then I got to see a friend of mine who now lives in Austin, for the first time in over two years.  She has 3 kids, and i can't believe 1.) how cute they are and 2.) how old they are. I met her in 2005 when we were both in Orientation for Dillards, we started at the same time. So we hung out with her (i'll post a pic) and drank some beers.  We went home, woke up early on sunday (well an hour later thanks to the time change) cleaned out my car, and washed the outside, went to Sams, Verizon for chris, Texas Land and Cattle for lunch on i-30 and then walmart for grocery shopping which was necessary and then animation domination sunday :) it was a good weekend, however, Monday. not happy about meeting you so soon.  Everyone else have a good weekend?

Coincidence?

i mean this whole heartedly... so i decided to listen to the entired Halcyon Digest album by Deerhunter... whats the name of the first song? "Earthquake" weird...

Tokyo Travesty...

if you haven't heard or read or haven't seen, Japan was ravaged by the largest recorded earthquake that stood 8.9 on the richter scale... check it out. pictures and videos are also on here:

http://www.cnn.com/

Sheen sense of disrespect

so the B-Rated Robert Downey Jr. (as i like to call him) has been all over the news, when you want it and when you don't.  Know who isn't all over the news?

http://afghanistan.blogs.cnn.com/2011/03/10/viral-post-pits-coverage-of-sheen-fallen-soldiers/?hpt=C2

Serbian Controversy?

Per Eli Roth on Twitter: @eliroth, there is a serious and potentially harmful buzz going around for the film A Serbian Film.  Check out the buzz below and also sign the anti-censorship petition as well. i'll link both.  This seems rather serious and i'm quite intrigued how this will play out.  Also give me some thoughts and please before anything read the entire article before you jump on the "it exploits children and sexually depicts them in disturbing manners" because none of that is shown on the film.  It's the subject matter and the director of the festival it was shown at could possibly face a year in prison. anyway, i'll let you form your own opinion.  I, for one, want to see the film. the uncut version. why? because i enjoy watching other peoples brilliance...and from i hear this is a beautifully made film regardless. 

http://twitchfilm.com/news/2011/03/the-sitges-festival-and-director-angel-sala-charged-with-exhibition-of-child-pornography-for-screeni.php

also here is the anti censorship link:

http://www.ipetitions.com/petition/contralacensurasitges

NOVACAINE.....FOR THE SOUL

"before i sputter out" the Eels bring back some good memories with that tune.  A good memory however, not like today, where i had two teeth filled in and the right side of my face numb...i felt like i had the biggest hairlip.. thats not an insult, i just imagined if i had a hairlip thats what it would feel like.  I like my smile better now though so it was worth it.

I watched "The Kids Are Alright" and i need to share a few things.  One: a remarkable and honest film...i fell in love with all three main characters.  I can see why Annette Benning was being buzzed about for best actress, but what the snub on Julianne Moore? her character was devestatingly beautiful in this not so uncommon concept of reality and fantasy.  Her pain was painful and her tears were wet...i felt them myself...i got choked up and anxious during the Benning's acknowledgement of betrayal and unfaithfulness.  I was white knuckled when Moore and Ruffalo had to bring forth the truth on this dirty little secret, and i was touched when it was later seen that Moore was simply confused, hurt and submissive.  I know what Benning's character was feeling, i've felt that way before. not in the same "exact" situation, but in my own unique way.  I knew what was coming before it happened, because i've been Annette Benning and i've been Julianne Moore and once, Mark Ruffalo's character.  It was ugly but beautiful at the same time.  The movie it's self was like a appetizer sampler.. a little bit of everything.  (and i've always wondered what Ruffalo looked like naked, now i kinda know ;) If you haven't seen this gem, i recommend it.  Only if you can handle the truth delivered by an average lesbian couple with communication difficulties and partner equality. I even cried...and i never touched on the two kids in the movie.. their characters? have a lot to be proud of. 

Stay tuned.....

Kimmy Creatine

Polls are closed. 17 people voted.  The winner:  YES...she should take creatine and pump up before her big day. 6 people....who voted no...SUCK! :)

Kim, we expect pictures of your progress ;)

You Voted...She Listened ;0)

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I don't know if it's the creatine, or the creatine acting as a placebo, but my workout last night was AWESOME

HEY KESHA.....

this shit will make you laugh...LAUGH! i'm team britney, always will be but this was very entertaining on both parts. check this out. if at work, use headphones.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xHwYNezkTCA

GaGa over this?

well this my friends, is the wonderful GaGa...hmm, i can SEE why so many people love her:

“I had My Little Ponies. I was obsessed with the idea of a creature that was born with something magical that sort of made them the misfit in the world of the stallion. I’m actually quite obsessed with unicorns. They are in essence a mythical creature. The unicorn is born magical and it’s not the unicorn’s fault and it doesn’t make it any more or less special or any less unique but it can’t help that it was born with that magic.”
- GaGa on the Big Top 40 radio show in the UK

Say what you feel, not what you think you should say

Let me be clear, i am, if anything receptive to negative feedback, i am capable of handling the truth, i am strong enough to handle knock out punch after knock out punch...so when i start feeling a weird animosity, like say in a work place, how should i proceed.  My first instinct is to call a meeting with this person, and flat out say how i feel. i don't have a problem doing that.  In fact, i'm debating if that is my only option, but i do feel i'm struggling to maintain professional relationships with certain people...and minus the obvious lack of experience in the department next to the other team members, i can't figure out what could possibly be the root cause of this semi-noticable glaring blast of tension. Confronting the problem is not the difficult part, it's how it affects me after i walk out of the office that i'm worried about. I think i just needed to write this out to rationalize my thoughts and to reassure myself that there are plenty of diplomatic and professional ways to handle this matter.

But i remain stagnant on this: I am an adult, if you can't handle telling me how you feel, then i suggest you suck it up and treat me like you treat others.  It's something we were all programmed to do, treat others as you want to be treated. it's not a difficult concept. we DON'T need to be friends outside of work...i'm more then okay with that.

Stay Tuned....

Second Best News Of The Day

Front page photo by Kurt Volk
Explosions in the Sky: "Trembling Hands":


Austin instrumental rock stars Explosions in the Sky will release their new album Take Care, Take Care, Take Care April 26 via Temporary Residence; that vividly green image you see above is the cover art. Click above to stream the album's first single, the stormy "Trembling Hands".

The Best News Of The Day!!

Photo by Annika Aschberg
Back in November, we reported that Fever Ray, the electro-goth project from the Knife's Karin Dreijer Andersson, would contribute a new song to the soundtrack for director Catherine Hardwicke's (Twilight, Thirteen) forthcoming Red Riding Hood film. That soundtrack sees release today, and Disco Naïveté has Fever Ray's contribution, the typically dark and clattering "The Wolf". Hear it here.

Cloudy With A Chance Of.....

I love overcast mornings....LOVE LOVE THEM....however, tuesday is my least favorite day of the week, i mean i hate any work day really, but Tuesdays really bug me.  for starters....we have a 7:30 am call with people from our offshore team (India) for an hour the three memebers of my team get to figure out what the hell they are saying.  Then, the 4th member of our team comes from Carrollton once a week (tuesdays) and shares my office with me, so i have to be on my best behavior...not really fond of that either.  Then we have our weekly team meeting... that is way to much going on for a tuesday!!

Meanwhile, as i'm writing this, i'm falling asleep looking out my window, listening to the offshore team yell into my speaker phone...and I STILL HAVE NO IDEA WTF THEY ARE SAYING...

I slept like crap last night...i always do when i'm by myself.  Bailey makes a great companion in the bed, but he takes up too much room. i have a kink in my neck.

a special congrats to PP for being on the winning end of the lost and found :)

1 day left...SHOULD KIM HORNE PUMP UP BEFORE HER WEDDING? I HAVE 16 VOTES....1 DAY LEFT TO VOTE.....C'MON SHOW LOVE FOR THIS RIDICULOUS POLL :)

Manic Monday...

"Someone has the case of the Monday's" is heard and repeated every monday. lets face it.  No one enjoys Mondays, or tuesdays, wednesdays (i don't give a flying fuck if it's Hump Day) chances are i'm not getting humped so it's not a happy wednesday.  Thursdays are only okay if you have the energy to make it Thirsty Thursday.  Friday is awesome, well mostly it's only awesome when it's 4:30, or 5:00 or for some people 6:00. 

It's already 2:34 today, i'm not sure why i'm complaining, because my day ends in 2 hours.  Chris is out of town, which means my sleep cycle is all jacked and eating habits are horrible.  Without him telling me what to do sometimes, i'm lost. haha. 28 years old and i prefer to live with someone who is a constant motivator. So i'll go home, eat cereal, maybe walk Baileysaurus, then come back, and watch reruns of Golden Girls and Family Guy until i go to bed. ya know....writing that out made me realize, sometimes Mondays aren't all bad.  I get excited when i think of Golden Girls.

I also woke up late today, which is weird because my best friend Heather, sent me a text that she overslept as well, on alternating Monday's she travels to Boston for work and had to haul ass to luckily get there in good time considering she overslept.  we are on the same schedule most of the time. when she's sick, i'm sick, when her back is hurting my back is hurting but that's primarily because our backs are always hurting. Strange ramblings right now. 

Had a good dinner Saturday night at Fireside Pies down on 7th street, in that new development. It was for Amee's birthday, i met her through Pot...sorry, Nina....she was there too and chris and richard and a few more of Amees friends.  All good people. had a great time, had a great Ginger vodka and tonic drink (or 3) and then we went to Delaney's for a few post dinner drinks.  Such a good crowd. :) i love being around good people.  Nina and Amee are good people. Good genuine people!  i can probably count on all my hands and maybe feet the genuine people i know right now in my life. that tells you something.

Stay Tuned...

My Biggest.....Fear!

I was talking with my friend Richard this weekend and it dawned on me that i never really thought about what my biggest fear was.   I mean there are the normal fears, "will i ever become something?" "will i ever have a family of my own?" "Death" "losing my loved ones, friends or family" all relevant and scary thoughts, facing an impending and unfortunate fate you fear most...but it dawned on me what my biggest fear was and that is Death, but dying and wondering how my absence would affect my sisters and now my nephew.  I cringed at the thought, i almost cried at the thought.  I mean i guess i have accepted everyone dies, i just don't want to die young and i'd prefer not to get murdered or tortured and feel pain before dying, but i'm so scared i would never get to look forward to the next day and call or text my sister Erika or call my older sister Pam and hear my lil nephew using his baby dialect. How they would feel scares me most as well.  I don't know why i thought of that or what provoked the conversation but it came up.  I now know what my biggest fear is. What is your biggest fear? So, now to move away from this morbid topic, i'm going to give a weekend recap, after i do some work this beautiful Monday morning. 

I won't normally let 2 full days go by before writing another blog, but this was a pretty busy weekend.  I"ll share with you soon.  Also, i will start posting Poetry :) writing that has never been seen by anyone but myself.

Stay tuned....

I Loathe Huckabee

Mike Huckabee, 2012 Presidential Hopeful....had a few choice words for Natalie Portman.  (i find it unbearable and unecessary to take a dig at someone who never shows her face in the light of politics but has no problem standing up for her beliefs (take note Galliano) Below is a quote from Hucka-douche on Natalie Portman.

"She got up, she was very visibly pregnant, and it's really it's a problem because she's about seven months pregnant, it's her first pregnancy, and she and the baby's father aren't married, and before two billion people, Natalie Portman says, 'Oh I want to thank my love and he's given me the most wonderful gift,'" Huckabee told Medved, per the liberal group MediaMatters. "He didn't give her the most wonderful gift, which would be a wedding ring! And it just seems to me that sending that kind of message is problematic."

My problem with this passage, is that there are several thousands if not more women who raise children on their own, they aren't married, some choose not to be and some are left behind by their husbands.  You can't possibly make me believe that Ms. Portman or any other female who stands up proudly showing her amazing gift and creation is bad to do in front of "2 billion" people as he quotes.  We need to draw a line here.  For me, if you are a 2012 hopeful for president, this is not the first topic i'd touch or even speak on.  If a woman is pregnant, my first thought is, "hmm, i don't see a ring" how dare she show off that belly without some stupid piece of jewlery from her potentially unfaithful husband? (note to those happily married couples, thats no dig on you.) i praise and admire your faithfulness.  In fact, a couple that comes to mind is my good friend William and his wife Amy. i wish i knew more Married couples like them.  They make me believe in Marriage. even coming from a family of divorced parents, where little faith is often found.  I just think we miss the bigger picture.  Marriage and divorce rates fluctuate...and though "some" believe that in the bible marriage is between a man and a woman, a woman should be married to have a baby, we fail to see the broken homes, the homeless kids, the battered women, the disappearing husbands.. (whatever, we all watch, criminal minds, csi, svu, the first 48, etc) it happens...but a woman choosing to have a baby on her terms doesn't mean she's sending a bad example to the rest of america, even one that is accepting the best actress award, in front of millions.  There are bigger problems Huckabee...if Natalie says her finance gave her the best gift, who are you to pick that apart? wow, that really pissed me off!!

Let me know what you think!

666...

I'm doing pretty good with this blog thing, i mean it's only been up since mid last week...and considering i'm having a helluva time promoting this and getting people from all over the world involved, i'm doing pretty good. My current page views are 666....some people would think thats a low number but not me...i'm happy.  lets get another 666 more...i want to identify with all cultures!

Thank you for reading.  More to come.

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It's Britney, Bitch!

Lets be honest, i think gurl is done drinking her crazy juice.  Since the release of Circus 2 years ago, it appears she's determined to get back to Britney status. I'm not pop music junkie, but BUT...i am lover for a good pop diva and Britney is it. This bitch is back, this bitch is fierce, this bitch is ready to remind the world Lady gaga ain't alone.  Hold it against me, was the first track released from Femme Fatal (released March 29) though the song was okay, great in clubs, but not as first track released, she has released a new song off the album and this confirms, it truly is BRITNEY, bitch! take a listen to the new track "Till The World Ends"  lets derail Gaga off the itunes chart...and put Brit Brit where she belongs!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EYRSvQXkcZ0

....you know how to make this boy blush.....

and before i get into one of the two ways that have caused me to blush/over excite me is because...2 friends of mine, expressed they are enjoying my blogs.  Well thats amazing news, because i don't know what the fuck i'm doing and quite frankily i haven't even begun to write like i know i can. i suppose i need to start opening up more, giving you a vision of what i see and hear everyday.  So to Jenni and Amber this ones for you.

So yes, i'm still working out down at the 7th street L.A Fitness. I really like it.  People are friendly, and there really aren't that many meatheads or college brats out at lunch time, so i am very lucky.  Well it's also no secret that i like to stare especially when there is something to look at....and believe me there is a lot to look at this gym. It's almost a who's who of the fitness world, who eats the best, who runs the farthest, who lifts the most, who sweats the hardest... well, i don't run the farthest, i probably sweat the hardest and i probably don't lift the most....so i'm an average joe observing. 

Well the last time i went to the gym (not today) there was a very chiseled, young and physically gifted young man standing in the lockeroom...i mean the main aisle of the locker room, not the locker aisle.  He's not from America, i can tell. Foreign people just have a look to them. Maybe it's their mouths, sometimes their grills (english people) or their facial features, like all of them use botox, except it's not botox they just take better care of themselves then Americans do.  Well i had to excuse myself while walking around him, because he was stretching.....NAKED.... and honestly, he was smooth skinned, not hairy, well endowed and had a head of hair girls would kill for. He doesn't talk. he barely makes eye contact. so it's easy to get carried away staring at him.  I mean it's normal, right? well i have no excuse, i like what i see, but regardless, sometimes you stare, not because you are thinking of which shower stall to take him too but because you want to admire something, you've secretly aspired to be....FIT, Healthy, and lets face it, looking at guys/girls like that you want to be pissed that you are working your ass off at the gym and their merely toning what they have.  Sometimes, i'm convinced they were born that way....is that ridiculous of me? naieve of me?

Well regardless, so this guy is stretching, showing everyone why he's so proud....and for good reason, but i admire his ability to pretend others aren't even in the room. Who knows, he's probably fully aware of those around him and not pretending but sometimes i think that has to be the reason for being so courageous with your body. I wish i was, but no one wants to see me stretching like i'm david beckham. cause i'll be the first to admit i'm not. And I'll be damned, the one time he decides to make eye contact, it's at me because i'm gawking...again for pure admiration ;) sometimes i wish we had cameras in our retnas....it was too risky pulling out my iphone.. trust me, though, i'll work up (the size of his) balls and do it one day. To simply reward my viewers of reading my blog and enjoying what i write. What i see, what i hear...it's the least i can do.

Stay Tuned......

Creativity Robbed

in 2008, Karin Dreijer Andersson from The Knife came out with her solor project Fever Ray. In the video for the song "If i had a heart" she appeard in a painted skeletal get up, that was creepy, bizarre and artistically advanced...but now Lady Gaga and even Weezy (lil Wayne) are featuring the same kind of concept in their videos and are being showcased for their "over the top" forward thinking creativity...when in reality it's been done before, by a much more talented artist. well, i like Lil Wayne, so i won't go there, but i do hate copy cats. See all the images below and tell me what you think.

below is a girl from the new Lil Wayne video of "6 Foot 7 Foot"


Below is a clip from the new Lady GaGa video for "Born This Way"


and below here is the original, 2008 creation of this trend and by far the least appreciated artist....Fever Ray for the video of "If I Had A Heart"

Tell me do you see the different variations? do you think i'm right? do you think each is different? Let me know.

BY....U should have known better.....

a look at the Honor Code at BYU, which recently dismissed their leading rebounder and 3rd highest scorer, Brandon Davies. Sadly for them, a chance of a high(er) seed in the NCAA tourney look slim after getting blown out by unranked New Mexico days after the dismissal. What blows my mind is their honor code, i mean i know BYU is the most sober school in the nation, as it resides in mormon country, but some of the things to abstain from blow my mind. why am i so shocked?? i would never even be allowed in a place like this, even if i was more open minded about religion. here is their honor code, as listed by CNN.com:

The honor code requires all faculty, staff and students to:

Be honest;
Live a chaste and virtuous life;
Obey the law and all campus policies;
Use clean language;
Respect others;
Abstain from alcoholic beverages, tobacco, tea, coffee and substance abuse;
Participate regularly in church services;
Observe dress and grooming standards;
Encourage others in their commitment to comply with the honor code.
The code forbids homosexual behavior and bars members of the opposite sex from going beyond the lobby of the school's single-sex dormitories.

The dress and grooming standards forbid beards, tattoos and piercings for men and short or form-fitting clothes or bare feet in public for women.


What do you think?

Arcade Fires Explosion In The Sky

Eagerly and impatiently awaiting for 10:00 am this morning, that is when The Arcade Fire/Explosions In The Sky tickets go on presale for the May 3rd show in Austin. Yes, it's a tuesday but Arcade Fire is on my bucket list. i need NEED to see them live before i die. i'm getting excited just at the prospect of buying the tickets...i won't tell you how many bowel movements i'll lose control of on the day of the concert, but we'll cross that bridge when it comes. :)

What are some of your favorite shows coming up? any good concerts you are attending? SXSW? Bonnaroo? Sasquatch? ACL? i still have 4/11- Raveonettes 4/22 Sleigh Bells/CSS :)

Date With Dr. Giggles...

Well, not quite, but i can't help but think of Dr. Giggles when i think of going to the Dentist, or even this indie horror movie, The Dentist. I haven't seen a dentist in, lets say, a few years. My fear of people being near my mouth, only extends to those who wear latex gloves and hold shiny metal instruments that look as if they could double for weapons. Needless to say, i've been purposely neglectful and now i'm paying for it. it's okay, i'm getting it done. I mean it's a been a year of firsts all around.

I go back next thursday to get some work done on two of my teeth, thank god for my beyond insanely good benefits because it's not costing me anything at this rate.

I've been trying to figure out a way to reach out to more people. My "friends on facebook" aren't really helping me out, and this is because maybe i do want to pursue something in writing. i've always wanted to write professionally but from the heart and because i'm good at what i do and because it's what makes me happy. I want to share more about myself, and include others into this, as i'm sure i've had a bad experience that surely someone could relate too. i may not have handled the situation to my best ability, but in retrospect, i've been able to rationalize a better and more respectable way of approaching those kinds of situations, which are thankfully hypothetical and no longer a lingering guilt.

If you have a way for me to promote my life, my blog, my words, shoot me an email, or facebook me. you could twitter me, but that might be a waste of time, as i never remember my password.

Email is thaiko0903@gmail.com and at facebook you can catch me at www.facebook.com/thaiko. i welcome all feedback and suggestions. Tell me if i need to be more personal, and tell me if i need to reveal more. But be careful what you wish for ;)

Stay Tuned.....

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6 Weeks of Seperation

Well, in less then 6 weeks, PP gets married :) I'm using her big day as my big day, and intend to lose more weight and look better svelt then i have in a long time. I have to push myself some more and stop "rewarding" my fat ass on weekends and justifying it by saying i'll work harder at the gym and just push myself.

I go to the dentist today, i hate dentists. i haven't been in a really long time for that reason alone. I hate people probing in my mouth, and though i need it terribly, i'm not looking forward to it. blah. I imagine i'll have a few more trips lined up soon as follow ups.

I feel better then the last two days, i can keep food down. thats a bonus. However, i have to watch what i eat and refrain from big solid meals. Well, hopefully this will speed up my diet ;)

I had the craziest dream last night, crazy because it included people no longer in my life, but people from the black hole of Dexter, Maine and those i went to high school with.  By far, the strangest. i mean i don't even think of these people. strange.

Also, a poll, should Kim start using Creatine, weeks upon her wedding while she goes to the gym? anyone want to see a jacked up Kim???? i think i'll put a poll, you should all vote :)

Well it's official, while on mobile- I'll treat my blog as if it's twitter. And it's fair to say that the new Cafe Brazil on W. Berry in Fort Worth is a great location and a clean and friendly environment but I think I may have dropped a few IQ points listening to Blonde and Dumber.

Testing my new mobile format

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Been A While....(Not to be confused with Aaron Lewis's song)

well i have been away for a little while...i've been sick and haven't had the chance to update my weekend.

Friday night was relatively a cluster.  Met up my friend Megan, whom i haven't seen in a while. (Megs, way to long, lets not do that again) We had drinks at Chuy's on 7th street. I then picked up my sister and met a couple friends (william and amy, joe and john) at the Bush.  Ran into Adair and Curtis. all friends i've met through work.  i'll be posting pics of more friends so you can put a face to the name.

Saturday, we helped my dear friend Nina move into her beautiful condo.  Hardwood floors, fireplace, spacious patio, with a gorgeous view of the pool. She had a great turnout, and was very blessed to have a lot of us help her move.  It was literally an hour to move out of the house and unpack to her new place.  Thanks to her sister and sisters husband (and two boys), Kim, Myself, Richard, Seth, Cary, Christopher, Chris, James, and Amee.. I mean we moved the shit out of her stuff. :) I've since seen pics and man is it cute and so ninas style now that she's unpacked.  :) I"m so happy for you Nina. :)

Sunday, was a Culvers day. Chris and i will drive out to Flower Mound every so often to have Culvers which is a burger place mostly in mid west, famous for their cheese curds and bbq sauce and their butter burgers. YUM!!!! once we got back we had to prepare for the 83rd Academy Awards gathering. It only ended up being Nina, Stephanie and Richard that came over but it was fun. we watch Natalie Portman win Best Actress, we watched all the best and worst dressed (disappointed in you ScarJo...though the hair is working for you) and then i took monday off and got sick and now i'm home sick today tuesday.  Last night i ate sloppy joes and almost instantly after, i complained my stomach hurt.  Chris told me to go upstiars and lay down but as soon as i got upstairs, i went into the bathroom and blew chunks...really? i haven't puked without the assistance of binge drinking in a while.  now thats twice in one week. i'm getting worrieds. so i think i'm going to go to the doctor. what do you think i should do?

Stay Tuned..... a more detailed and exciting report to follow shortly. just wanted to let you know i'm still here :)

(Not) Down With The Sickness

Well i've been dedicating a lot of time to losing weight and getting back into shape...like Tim from 8 years ago... I've tried to get healthier as i'm not getting any younger and the longer i wait to take care of myself the harder it will be to see satisfying results.  So i've been going to L.A Fitness on 7th every Monday, Wednesday & Friday's.  I do 20 mins of cardio to get my juices flowing.  I'm on the Eliptical now, and have shaved off my time for a mile by 4 mins. So i'm getting there.  Another (not so big) secret is i'm also doing Weight Watchers, which has helped me make better decisions when it comes to eating, i have better dicipline and portion control.  I'm also diligent at making sure i track what i eat all day long.  To ensure i don't go over my daily points (or that i don't dip into my weekly anytime points) i make sure i log all of my physical activity.  It's helps a lot.

Well i've been good at eating lunch i've brought from home, incorporated nothing but Water all day, eat fruits and veggies and i've been eating more chicken breast.  I've cut off eating after a certain time, i've quit smoking, i've cut back on drinking (for me, a significant amount) to others, not enough, and i've laid off all Fast Foods for the most part...that is until todays adventure.

I needed to get gas, and it's beautiful out so i went for a drive down 7th street, which is so stupid of me during lunch hour traffic, but i digress (thank you Sophia Petrillo) So i turned left onto University.  I was going to go to Panera, because my friend Richard texted me that he had it today for the first time, but nope, i just kept driving by.  Well now my gas light is on because i'm dilly dallying in the car driving around listening to ARCADE FIRE'S NEW ALBUM "THE SUBURBS" in complete anticipation for their May 3rd show in Austin.  Well finally i get up to W.Berry by TCU and see a gas station.. it was the cheapest.  $3.25- all others were $3.39. so i stopped, filled up and turned just in time to see the Golden Arch..like the king of Arches. Yep, Mcdonalds.  Well i was hungry and depriving myself of anything that could pose a threat and hurt my chances of staying healthy and consistent with my diet and gym time. but Fuck it...i want a cheeseburger...well a Number 2... so two cheeseburgers, but that wasn't enough so i got a McDouble, which btw way is different from a double cheeseburger because it only has one piece of cheese and two meat patties.  fyi.  So i get back to the office, can barely eat the burgers, but i do. i suck down my diet coke (gross) and sit there for a minute. My stomach is hurting...i'm getting a weird feeling at the midpoint of my throat.. yeah you know, like when you have to puke?

Well i go down to 14 to see my friends Nina and Kim and Kim is busy so i blow by her cubicle and go to Nina who saw me coming and decided to have a good laugh on me and jump me from behind her cubicle wall...it worked.  two days of embarrasing reactions.  Well i left her desk after planning our Arcade Fire trip to Austin in May and went up to stairs to my office, which then turned into "leave me alone, close my door all the way and pull out the trashcan cause daddy has to puke time" yep, i blew chunks, well i blew cheeseburgers if you want to be specific.  IS that punishment? do you think my body is finally capable of recognizing that i've not had this kind of food in a while and it's relatively toxic for me? have i finally gotten to that point? or was it mere coincidence that i threw up after eating a very unhealthy lunch?

Hmmmm, stay tuned....

Explosions in the Sky - Have You Passed Through This Night?

Queer Sandwich

Erika, Myself and Lucy...now you can put a face to the name :)

i actually have 2 (5) sisters

here are my other two besides Pammy and Erika:

Harder then it looks

me and heather for some nice one on one time at the brookfield reservoir. (i think)

90's revival

Halloween 2010:

Kurt Cobain, Courtney Love, Drew Barrymore and one of the Cheerleaders from "Smells Like Teen Spirit" video.

Auntie Erika and Lil Jman

and his new Pj's courtesy of Aunt Erika:

The Best Christmas Gift.......EVER...

I still tear up when i see this.  Erika sent me this text on Christmas Eve as i was spending it without any family. This made me realize, you can be as far away as you want, but you're always so close to my heart.

More Pics

A Pic of Charlie and His Angels:  Pot, Pumps and PP (all P's, weird) AKA... Nina, Heather, Kim

Your Daily Lil Jman Cutness

Lil Johnson with his Uncles Chris and Tim and Mommy Pam.  Family so close yet so far away. i miss you both every second of every day.

Best Friends, Great Music

the one person in my life that knows more about me, is my best friend Heather.  I've never had to worry about her judging me and have always had her support in my corner.  I'm not sure i can even begin to explain the magnitude of our friendship, as there are also a lot of things i can't share with you, my wonderful and very limited audience. haha. certain things are strictly betwixt us....(inside joke)

Heather is my best friend from Connecticut...we met through a mutual friend Maureen...but Heather and I bonded over music, never have i met someone so in tune and so understanding of Music and it's purpose and it's pleasure. It's impact and ability to carry through highs and lows of emotions.  One of my goals on this blog is to eventually introduce you to the Old Tim and Heather...and reintroduce you to the new Tim and Heather...there is a huge difference...i think you'll like us both. old and new.

However, we've spent the last 6 years maintaining this friendship from 2200 miles apart. As difficult as it is, or seems, it's been relatively easy for the two of us and though we've had our very low moments, we understand, like, music, the impact we have on each others lives. The reason i'm writing this is because i will start sharing stories/conversations (to a limit) and pictures of me and heather and want all of you to be in the know of who this amazing person is in my life. I love you Heath..."BTM" "PAB" "LADONDRA" and all of the crazy names we've come up with. 

Thank you for being my best friend, from near, from far, from in your heart.

Stay Tuned...

silly mid day fun

PP keeps me entertained, as does Pot and Pumps....they are my 14th floor angels!

Embarassing Moment of the ......MORNING!

I don't suspect i'll have another embarassing moment but if i do, it will be hard to top this one....

In my office, you open the door and it's a double with a partition splitting it...so like two cubicles in one office, there isn't another body in there with me so it's just me in the office. i chose the desk furthest from the door with a nice window seat of 30 and the hospital district.  Well i use headphones all day at work so i never hear anyone walk in my office unless i see the door open up.  I have to close it so i can see it open so i don't get surprised. i'm very jumpy.

well i was just listening to this song by Natalia Kills and sure enough i start getting down while working....yeah...down....and poor lil Rita the 16th floor admin and overall personality of the floor...with the best laugh, was peering around the corner trying to get my attention and i didn't see her.  So she got to witness my wonderfully choreographed dance that i made up in 5 seconds....only for me to notice her and stop in my shoes....

umm, yeah...

An Obsession I Need To Share

i think i posted this yesterday and i don't care... you need to hear this song. put it on repeat... wash the dishes, work in your office, lay down, drive in your car...just listen to it. Anyone who is a fan of real music can hear the influence of Antony & The Johnsons....a treat indeed.


http://listen.grooveshark.com/s/In+This+Shirt/2nmrrO?src=5

Then this hit me...

Lady Guyguy's new song has been out, what, like 2 weeks if that and there are already people out there who have learned the music, the voice and tone of the lyrics and are getting on the Ellen show...i give this little girl props, but she's 10.....and already far more talented then me. what the hell am i doing wrong? it couldn't possibly be because i am lazy and won't captalize my I's or the first letter of each first word starting a new sentence, could it?  anyway, lets give yet again another famous jenny-from the block, kid:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dx4BTCMxNgs

I realized something...

who the hell really wants to follow a blog on my life? lets be honest, i thought about it one day and thought i could start a blog (i love to write) share my poetry, my stupid thoughts, irrelevant posts, my emotions (highs and lows) when my prozac isn't working....i really mean that.. (i used to joke about prozac until i was perscribed it) and i've realized it's harder then i thought branching out to those 580 friends i have on facebook.  i thought, put some adsense and what not, make a revenue while i'm at it, I mean i guess if i had to be honest with myself, no one is interested in this crap. I need to be more creative, if i don't kids like this below get the best of my blog and more views and fame from famous queens like perez hilton.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gSUxLNgpyeU

Correction In Name Spelling

Can't give shout outs if i'm spelling peoples name wrong.. My best friends boyfriend is Ross Griffith, not Ross Griffin.  I apologize for the error.

The Irrepressibles- In This Shirt (NSFW..please don't watch at work)

discovered a beautiful and melodic and calming song by the Irrepressibles with an equally beautiful video, though those with closed minds won't think so.  tell me what you think.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l_2AgaZJWro

Thank you Heather...

Thanks to my beautiful and wonderful best friend Heather....who i can't wait to write about and introduce you too, her wonderful boyfriend solved a mystery almost 6 years old... in King Of The Hill, Peggy raps something hilarious for Bobby's 13th birthday....i have only joked and talked about it...but i haven't been able to find it...thanks Ross Griffin for finding this for me... enjoy one of Peggy's finest moments.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ME9qmrMj7Y4

Lets Be Honest....

She's back...she looks better then she has in almost 5 years....and this video is finally something worth watching...she left for a while....but folks she's back, the real princess of pop.....none of that gaga bullshiz! minus all of that product placement....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Edv8Onsrgg

Cults- Oh My God (Unofficial Video..per Cults twitter)

I love this group and i love James Franco...so i guess it's only fair that i love his bloodline...starring Emma Roberts and Dave Franco- for some MTV Supervideo series, but it's not the bands official video.

http://www.mtv.com/videos/misc/624456/supervideo-emma-roberts-dave-franco-featuring-cults-go-outside-directed-by-patrick-hoelck.jhtml

Wild Weekend

first i want to thank my job for observing Presidents day.  after the weekend i had, i need tomorrow off.

Well, Robyn was friday night. I told myself after turning 28 that i really need to stop going to concerts and drinking myself into oblivion before the show is over, so that i can recall the events and memories and of course the act.   Well, for some reason i was way to excited....i forgot about that personal pact i made with myself.   We met a wonderful bartender Tiffany at the Gilleys sports bar, the concert was in the Southside Music Hall.  We met two amazing women from Keller who ended up being our concert buddies, though i imagine by the time the concert was done they were wondering what the hell was up with our drunk asses. haha. bless their patient souls.

We had a room over off 183 at the Renissance Hotel. very nice.   So Richard and I got all gullied up and made way (sorry for the backtrack) Tiffany was kind enough to walk us to the venue after finally closing our tab. Robyn killed it. I didn't expect anything less. i could have done without Natalia Kills and Diamond Rings though they were entertaining.  I would have rathered Robyn for 3 hours. :)  Alas, i don't really remember what happened afterwards, though i know it was a good time.  I do remember my good friend Kim and her sister coming out to Cedar Springs to meet us for drinks... i wish i could recall things like our conversations or what not, but i don't. i just remember they looked beautiful, we showed her sister a good time and i left richard at the bar and took a cab back to the hotel on my own...haha. I swear i don't follow drama... it follows me.

I came home in the morning, i stunk of stale puke, was in desperate need of a toothbrush and hot water with soap.... then i remembered that i promised my good friend Lucy i would come to Tulsa for the evening.  Yeah after my "shit" show of a friday night, i was going to get in the shower, and spend 5 hours in a car.  Luckily my sis wanted to come along....i knew we'd have a blast on the road, and i still had a hint of motivation. so i called her, woke her up and said lets hit the road. Jill the GPS, decided to take us up 121 N to US 75 N.....horrible decision.  I'm used to taking 35...and i should have gone with it.  However, Erika and i had a good laugh going through the small towns so i wouldn't trade it for anything. We met Lucy up in Tulsa...had to relax for a few minutes before getting the festivities going for the night.

Before i forget, Lucy is a friend of mine i met in 2006 waiting in the will call line at the Gypsy Tea Room in Dallas for the Yeah Yeah Yeahs show....(still one of the best i've ever seen) She was with her friend Farah, they no longer speak, i don't speak to her either.... but anyway, Lucy was living in OKC, Farah in Dallas. They were best friends and we all got along great for the short time we all hung out together....but all good things come to end, and so didn't this...hahahah. Back to Lucy, so while waiting in line, i asked Lucy and Farah if they had ever seen YYY's in concert before. Lucy was appalled and didn't really want to talk to us...i guess she didn't realize that i did not want to bark up her tree...EVER :) needless to say, we walked in together, took a few shots of whiskey and got up as close as possible to Karen O that we could.  From that night on, we've been great friends... i love being around her and she's a blast to be with. 

So back to Tulsa....she took us out last night (which i'm not sure how i survived) all night i was feeling like i really should have been dead after the previous nights antics....which i did without the responsibilty of Chris. I'll bring chris into this soon enough... he deserves a formal introduction.  We got all dressed up and met her friends Nicole, Robin, Angela and Nathan out at a bar called Junkie to which we left to go to Renegade, then Electric Circus and then Fassler Hall (sp...) which was the best of them all because it was a mini Germany in an old Garage which great live music and lots of good beer.  Needless to say, another "mild night" turned into a 4:40 am morning, as me Lucy, Nathan and Erika stayed up at lucys talking and drinking wine when we got home and fell asleep only to wake up and leave by 9:00 so i could get Erika back to Fort Worth in time for work at 4:00.  we made it back by 2:30 and i've done nothing since...well, i did eat Mellow Mushroom for lunch... i will go back tomorrow into a tad bit more details, but i just wanted you to know about my weekend....thrilling isn't it?

Stay Tuned.... oh and there will be pictures ;)

Johnson Edward Haiko Leo

My nephew is the most precious thing I have in my life.  I hate being 2200 miles away but when i see him, it's magical.  I'm even more happy for my sister, who has longed for this.  Who has endured a lot to get to this point and i've stood by her every step of the way.  Afterall, without her, Johnson would exist ;) kidding, i love you pammy and i love my Lil Jman, so much it hurts being away.

Pj Harvey- Let England Shake

it's been a little while since i've been able to listen to an album front to back with complete euphoria....well maybe since The National- High Violet. so not that long ago, but the brillance of Polly Jean Harvey is back and is she ever back....her new album Let England Shake is exquisite....point blank my favorite album of this short new year...i feel that will stick for a while.  I encourage any 90's Pj Harvey fans to get this album....read the review here at consequence of sound:

http://consequenceofsound.net/2011/02/18/album-review-pj-harvey-let-england-shake/

and if you have the album, let me know what you think, i'm curious if all Polly fans feel the same way i do about the record.

Music Therapy

three sites i enjoy going too to get my new music fix:

http://www.pitchfork.com/
http://www.stereogum.com/
http://www.gorillavsbear.net/

check em out :)

Day 2 Of Something New

First thing First. Tonight, i'm going to see Robyn in Dallas at the South Side Music Hall. I'm wicked excited.  Yes, i said Wicked.  For those here in the south that don't know, i'm a born and bred yankee. I hail from the state(s) of Maine & Connecticut. I don't claim Maine in it's entirety even if i spent 18 years up there.. in Dexter. Can you tell me where Dexter is? no i'm not sure a lot of you could.  What if i said south of Bangor but north of Waterville? getting warmer? i figured.

So yes, i now live in Fort Worth, Texas.  Quite a culture shock when all you really know is New England.  i've been here for 6 years now. wow, typing that out almost seems surreal. i can't believe it's been that long. I don't really want to explain why i'm here,  There are certain aspects of my personal life that i'll avoid for the time being, when the time is right i'll sing like tweety, but for now, i'll take a detour.

I'm also really excited about tonight because my friend P.P (no thats not her real name) but it's funny to give her an alias on my blog like P.P.  we'll say it stands for Positive Polly :) Well her sister is in town from the great northwest and she wants to take her out to Cedar Springs in Dallas.  She is going to meet up with me and my friend Richard after the Robyn concert so we can show her a good time.  It's going to be a good time. 

For the time being, i'm going to get back to work, i'm only here until 12:30 p.m.  Then heading to Dallas for the night. I know your dying to know how tonight goes, so i'll be back tomorrow to report all of the great details.  I might not be able to until i get to Tulsa, oh yeah, did i mention i might go to Tulsa tomorrow morning after the concert to go see my friend Lucy.  I'll also go into details about how i met that trainwreck too ;0) I'll report back soon enough, can't keep my 0 followers in suspense ;)

Stay Tuned.....

A new year, a new look

Well since i'm new to this whole "blog" thing, which is considerably weird considering i've practically spent my whole life in technology, i've decided to try and reach out to those who know me, those who don't know me and those who want to know me.  I didn't forget you, you know who you are, those who know me and wish they didn't :) My blog will hopefully serve as a daily journal and hopefully shed some light on me, the one you know, don't know or want to know.....and yes even the stuff you wish you didn't know. 

I should come with a warning label...but i'll see how this goes. Sorry, i was distracted by this other source of wonderful and socially technological lifeline called Facebook.  My sister was just announced the Head Coach of Trinity Valley Field Hockey.  Thats great for her, she misses the field, and works great with kids/students.  Yes, thats how i found out Facebook.  You know thats how everyone finds out about things now....school cancellations, team practices, parties, pop quizzes, your favorite movies, what your friend is doing at 4:32 pm while at home....i mean everything.

well before i go completely formal on my introduction, let me tell you two things that i'm not anymore.  I'm not a smoker, it's been difficult but thanks to Chantix, i've cut my habit off completely.  I"m also not fat, though i shoudn't tease, cause i was never obese, but bigger then i should be considering i'm 5'7 and 28. Those are two things that i want to get out of the way. i'll be posting daily observations on my body and share with you how effective having a L.A Fitness gym membership really is.  Also going over my diet, helping others (as i'm still on a learning curve) and also taking a lot of time to listen to other people.  This isn't just about me.  It's about everyone. I just so happen to be the one that dictates the daily blogs. Enough about me.....for now... i'll be back to share a ton of great news, funny stories, hilarious and embarrassing moments and pics, as soon as i figure out how too :)

Stay Tuned...