(Not) Down With The Sickness

Well i've been dedicating a lot of time to losing weight and getting back into shape...like Tim from 8 years ago... I've tried to get healthier as i'm not getting any younger and the longer i wait to take care of myself the harder it will be to see satisfying results.  So i've been going to L.A Fitness on 7th every Monday, Wednesday & Friday's.  I do 20 mins of cardio to get my juices flowing.  I'm on the Eliptical now, and have shaved off my time for a mile by 4 mins. So i'm getting there.  Another (not so big) secret is i'm also doing Weight Watchers, which has helped me make better decisions when it comes to eating, i have better dicipline and portion control.  I'm also diligent at making sure i track what i eat all day long.  To ensure i don't go over my daily points (or that i don't dip into my weekly anytime points) i make sure i log all of my physical activity.  It's helps a lot.

Well i've been good at eating lunch i've brought from home, incorporated nothing but Water all day, eat fruits and veggies and i've been eating more chicken breast.  I've cut off eating after a certain time, i've quit smoking, i've cut back on drinking (for me, a significant amount) to others, not enough, and i've laid off all Fast Foods for the most part...that is until todays adventure.

I needed to get gas, and it's beautiful out so i went for a drive down 7th street, which is so stupid of me during lunch hour traffic, but i digress (thank you Sophia Petrillo) So i turned left onto University.  I was going to go to Panera, because my friend Richard texted me that he had it today for the first time, but nope, i just kept driving by.  Well now my gas light is on because i'm dilly dallying in the car driving around listening to ARCADE FIRE'S NEW ALBUM "THE SUBURBS" in complete anticipation for their May 3rd show in Austin.  Well finally i get up to W.Berry by TCU and see a gas station.. it was the cheapest.  $3.25- all others were $3.39. so i stopped, filled up and turned just in time to see the Golden Arch..like the king of Arches. Yep, Mcdonalds.  Well i was hungry and depriving myself of anything that could pose a threat and hurt my chances of staying healthy and consistent with my diet and gym time. but Fuck it...i want a cheeseburger...well a Number 2... so two cheeseburgers, but that wasn't enough so i got a McDouble, which btw way is different from a double cheeseburger because it only has one piece of cheese and two meat patties.  fyi.  So i get back to the office, can barely eat the burgers, but i do. i suck down my diet coke (gross) and sit there for a minute. My stomach is hurting...i'm getting a weird feeling at the midpoint of my throat.. yeah you know, like when you have to puke?

Well i go down to 14 to see my friends Nina and Kim and Kim is busy so i blow by her cubicle and go to Nina who saw me coming and decided to have a good laugh on me and jump me from behind her cubicle wall...it worked.  two days of embarrasing reactions.  Well i left her desk after planning our Arcade Fire trip to Austin in May and went up to stairs to my office, which then turned into "leave me alone, close my door all the way and pull out the trashcan cause daddy has to puke time" yep, i blew chunks, well i blew cheeseburgers if you want to be specific.  IS that punishment? do you think my body is finally capable of recognizing that i've not had this kind of food in a while and it's relatively toxic for me? have i finally gotten to that point? or was it mere coincidence that i threw up after eating a very unhealthy lunch?

Hmmmm, stay tuned....

Explosions in the Sky - Have You Passed Through This Night?

Queer Sandwich

Erika, Myself and Lucy...now you can put a face to the name :)

i actually have 2 (5) sisters

here are my other two besides Pammy and Erika:

Harder then it looks

me and heather for some nice one on one time at the brookfield reservoir. (i think)

90's revival

Halloween 2010:

Kurt Cobain, Courtney Love, Drew Barrymore and one of the Cheerleaders from "Smells Like Teen Spirit" video.

Auntie Erika and Lil Jman

and his new Pj's courtesy of Aunt Erika:

The Best Christmas Gift.......EVER...

I still tear up when i see this.  Erika sent me this text on Christmas Eve as i was spending it without any family. This made me realize, you can be as far away as you want, but you're always so close to my heart.

More Pics

A Pic of Charlie and His Angels:  Pot, Pumps and PP (all P's, weird) AKA... Nina, Heather, Kim

Your Daily Lil Jman Cutness

Lil Johnson with his Uncles Chris and Tim and Mommy Pam.  Family so close yet so far away. i miss you both every second of every day.

Best Friends, Great Music

the one person in my life that knows more about me, is my best friend Heather.  I've never had to worry about her judging me and have always had her support in my corner.  I'm not sure i can even begin to explain the magnitude of our friendship, as there are also a lot of things i can't share with you, my wonderful and very limited audience. haha. certain things are strictly betwixt us....(inside joke)

Heather is my best friend from Connecticut...we met through a mutual friend Maureen...but Heather and I bonded over music, never have i met someone so in tune and so understanding of Music and it's purpose and it's pleasure. It's impact and ability to carry through highs and lows of emotions.  One of my goals on this blog is to eventually introduce you to the Old Tim and Heather...and reintroduce you to the new Tim and Heather...there is a huge difference...i think you'll like us both. old and new.

However, we've spent the last 6 years maintaining this friendship from 2200 miles apart. As difficult as it is, or seems, it's been relatively easy for the two of us and though we've had our very low moments, we understand, like, music, the impact we have on each others lives. The reason i'm writing this is because i will start sharing stories/conversations (to a limit) and pictures of me and heather and want all of you to be in the know of who this amazing person is in my life. I love you Heath..."BTM" "PAB" "LADONDRA" and all of the crazy names we've come up with. 

Thank you for being my best friend, from near, from far, from in your heart.

Stay Tuned...

silly mid day fun

PP keeps me entertained, as does Pot and Pumps....they are my 14th floor angels!

Embarassing Moment of the ......MORNING!

I don't suspect i'll have another embarassing moment but if i do, it will be hard to top this one....

In my office, you open the door and it's a double with a partition splitting it...so like two cubicles in one office, there isn't another body in there with me so it's just me in the office. i chose the desk furthest from the door with a nice window seat of 30 and the hospital district.  Well i use headphones all day at work so i never hear anyone walk in my office unless i see the door open up.  I have to close it so i can see it open so i don't get surprised. i'm very jumpy.

well i was just listening to this song by Natalia Kills and sure enough i start getting down while working....yeah...down....and poor lil Rita the 16th floor admin and overall personality of the floor...with the best laugh, was peering around the corner trying to get my attention and i didn't see her.  So she got to witness my wonderfully choreographed dance that i made up in 5 seconds....only for me to notice her and stop in my shoes....

umm, yeah...

An Obsession I Need To Share

i think i posted this yesterday and i don't care... you need to hear this song. put it on repeat... wash the dishes, work in your office, lay down, drive in your car...just listen to it. Anyone who is a fan of real music can hear the influence of Antony & The Johnsons....a treat indeed.


http://listen.grooveshark.com/s/In+This+Shirt/2nmrrO?src=5

Then this hit me...

Lady Guyguy's new song has been out, what, like 2 weeks if that and there are already people out there who have learned the music, the voice and tone of the lyrics and are getting on the Ellen show...i give this little girl props, but she's 10.....and already far more talented then me. what the hell am i doing wrong? it couldn't possibly be because i am lazy and won't captalize my I's or the first letter of each first word starting a new sentence, could it?  anyway, lets give yet again another famous jenny-from the block, kid:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dx4BTCMxNgs

I realized something...

who the hell really wants to follow a blog on my life? lets be honest, i thought about it one day and thought i could start a blog (i love to write) share my poetry, my stupid thoughts, irrelevant posts, my emotions (highs and lows) when my prozac isn't working....i really mean that.. (i used to joke about prozac until i was perscribed it) and i've realized it's harder then i thought branching out to those 580 friends i have on facebook.  i thought, put some adsense and what not, make a revenue while i'm at it, I mean i guess if i had to be honest with myself, no one is interested in this crap. I need to be more creative, if i don't kids like this below get the best of my blog and more views and fame from famous queens like perez hilton.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gSUxLNgpyeU

Correction In Name Spelling

Can't give shout outs if i'm spelling peoples name wrong.. My best friends boyfriend is Ross Griffith, not Ross Griffin.  I apologize for the error.

The Irrepressibles- In This Shirt (NSFW..please don't watch at work)

discovered a beautiful and melodic and calming song by the Irrepressibles with an equally beautiful video, though those with closed minds won't think so.  tell me what you think.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l_2AgaZJWro

Thank you Heather...

Thanks to my beautiful and wonderful best friend Heather....who i can't wait to write about and introduce you too, her wonderful boyfriend solved a mystery almost 6 years old... in King Of The Hill, Peggy raps something hilarious for Bobby's 13th birthday....i have only joked and talked about it...but i haven't been able to find it...thanks Ross Griffin for finding this for me... enjoy one of Peggy's finest moments.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ME9qmrMj7Y4

Lets Be Honest....

She's back...she looks better then she has in almost 5 years....and this video is finally something worth watching...she left for a while....but folks she's back, the real princess of pop.....none of that gaga bullshiz! minus all of that product placement....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Edv8Onsrgg

Cults- Oh My God (Unofficial Video..per Cults twitter)

I love this group and i love James Franco...so i guess it's only fair that i love his bloodline...starring Emma Roberts and Dave Franco- for some MTV Supervideo series, but it's not the bands official video.

http://www.mtv.com/videos/misc/624456/supervideo-emma-roberts-dave-franco-featuring-cults-go-outside-directed-by-patrick-hoelck.jhtml

Wild Weekend

first i want to thank my job for observing Presidents day.  after the weekend i had, i need tomorrow off.

Well, Robyn was friday night. I told myself after turning 28 that i really need to stop going to concerts and drinking myself into oblivion before the show is over, so that i can recall the events and memories and of course the act.   Well, for some reason i was way to excited....i forgot about that personal pact i made with myself.   We met a wonderful bartender Tiffany at the Gilleys sports bar, the concert was in the Southside Music Hall.  We met two amazing women from Keller who ended up being our concert buddies, though i imagine by the time the concert was done they were wondering what the hell was up with our drunk asses. haha. bless their patient souls.

We had a room over off 183 at the Renissance Hotel. very nice.   So Richard and I got all gullied up and made way (sorry for the backtrack) Tiffany was kind enough to walk us to the venue after finally closing our tab. Robyn killed it. I didn't expect anything less. i could have done without Natalia Kills and Diamond Rings though they were entertaining.  I would have rathered Robyn for 3 hours. :)  Alas, i don't really remember what happened afterwards, though i know it was a good time.  I do remember my good friend Kim and her sister coming out to Cedar Springs to meet us for drinks... i wish i could recall things like our conversations or what not, but i don't. i just remember they looked beautiful, we showed her sister a good time and i left richard at the bar and took a cab back to the hotel on my own...haha. I swear i don't follow drama... it follows me.

I came home in the morning, i stunk of stale puke, was in desperate need of a toothbrush and hot water with soap.... then i remembered that i promised my good friend Lucy i would come to Tulsa for the evening.  Yeah after my "shit" show of a friday night, i was going to get in the shower, and spend 5 hours in a car.  Luckily my sis wanted to come along....i knew we'd have a blast on the road, and i still had a hint of motivation. so i called her, woke her up and said lets hit the road. Jill the GPS, decided to take us up 121 N to US 75 N.....horrible decision.  I'm used to taking 35...and i should have gone with it.  However, Erika and i had a good laugh going through the small towns so i wouldn't trade it for anything. We met Lucy up in Tulsa...had to relax for a few minutes before getting the festivities going for the night.

Before i forget, Lucy is a friend of mine i met in 2006 waiting in the will call line at the Gypsy Tea Room in Dallas for the Yeah Yeah Yeahs show....(still one of the best i've ever seen) She was with her friend Farah, they no longer speak, i don't speak to her either.... but anyway, Lucy was living in OKC, Farah in Dallas. They were best friends and we all got along great for the short time we all hung out together....but all good things come to end, and so didn't this...hahahah. Back to Lucy, so while waiting in line, i asked Lucy and Farah if they had ever seen YYY's in concert before. Lucy was appalled and didn't really want to talk to us...i guess she didn't realize that i did not want to bark up her tree...EVER :) needless to say, we walked in together, took a few shots of whiskey and got up as close as possible to Karen O that we could.  From that night on, we've been great friends... i love being around her and she's a blast to be with. 

So back to Tulsa....she took us out last night (which i'm not sure how i survived) all night i was feeling like i really should have been dead after the previous nights antics....which i did without the responsibilty of Chris. I'll bring chris into this soon enough... he deserves a formal introduction.  We got all dressed up and met her friends Nicole, Robin, Angela and Nathan out at a bar called Junkie to which we left to go to Renegade, then Electric Circus and then Fassler Hall (sp...) which was the best of them all because it was a mini Germany in an old Garage which great live music and lots of good beer.  Needless to say, another "mild night" turned into a 4:40 am morning, as me Lucy, Nathan and Erika stayed up at lucys talking and drinking wine when we got home and fell asleep only to wake up and leave by 9:00 so i could get Erika back to Fort Worth in time for work at 4:00.  we made it back by 2:30 and i've done nothing since...well, i did eat Mellow Mushroom for lunch... i will go back tomorrow into a tad bit more details, but i just wanted you to know about my weekend....thrilling isn't it?

Stay Tuned.... oh and there will be pictures ;)

Johnson Edward Haiko Leo

My nephew is the most precious thing I have in my life.  I hate being 2200 miles away but when i see him, it's magical.  I'm even more happy for my sister, who has longed for this.  Who has endured a lot to get to this point and i've stood by her every step of the way.  Afterall, without her, Johnson would exist ;) kidding, i love you pammy and i love my Lil Jman, so much it hurts being away.

Pj Harvey- Let England Shake

it's been a little while since i've been able to listen to an album front to back with complete euphoria....well maybe since The National- High Violet. so not that long ago, but the brillance of Polly Jean Harvey is back and is she ever back....her new album Let England Shake is exquisite....point blank my favorite album of this short new year...i feel that will stick for a while.  I encourage any 90's Pj Harvey fans to get this album....read the review here at consequence of sound:

http://consequenceofsound.net/2011/02/18/album-review-pj-harvey-let-england-shake/

and if you have the album, let me know what you think, i'm curious if all Polly fans feel the same way i do about the record.

Music Therapy

three sites i enjoy going too to get my new music fix:

http://www.pitchfork.com/
http://www.stereogum.com/
http://www.gorillavsbear.net/

check em out :)

Day 2 Of Something New

First thing First. Tonight, i'm going to see Robyn in Dallas at the South Side Music Hall. I'm wicked excited.  Yes, i said Wicked.  For those here in the south that don't know, i'm a born and bred yankee. I hail from the state(s) of Maine & Connecticut. I don't claim Maine in it's entirety even if i spent 18 years up there.. in Dexter. Can you tell me where Dexter is? no i'm not sure a lot of you could.  What if i said south of Bangor but north of Waterville? getting warmer? i figured.

So yes, i now live in Fort Worth, Texas.  Quite a culture shock when all you really know is New England.  i've been here for 6 years now. wow, typing that out almost seems surreal. i can't believe it's been that long. I don't really want to explain why i'm here,  There are certain aspects of my personal life that i'll avoid for the time being, when the time is right i'll sing like tweety, but for now, i'll take a detour.

I'm also really excited about tonight because my friend P.P (no thats not her real name) but it's funny to give her an alias on my blog like P.P.  we'll say it stands for Positive Polly :) Well her sister is in town from the great northwest and she wants to take her out to Cedar Springs in Dallas.  She is going to meet up with me and my friend Richard after the Robyn concert so we can show her a good time.  It's going to be a good time. 

For the time being, i'm going to get back to work, i'm only here until 12:30 p.m.  Then heading to Dallas for the night. I know your dying to know how tonight goes, so i'll be back tomorrow to report all of the great details.  I might not be able to until i get to Tulsa, oh yeah, did i mention i might go to Tulsa tomorrow morning after the concert to go see my friend Lucy.  I'll also go into details about how i met that trainwreck too ;0) I'll report back soon enough, can't keep my 0 followers in suspense ;)

Stay Tuned.....

A new year, a new look

Well since i'm new to this whole "blog" thing, which is considerably weird considering i've practically spent my whole life in technology, i've decided to try and reach out to those who know me, those who don't know me and those who want to know me.  I didn't forget you, you know who you are, those who know me and wish they didn't :) My blog will hopefully serve as a daily journal and hopefully shed some light on me, the one you know, don't know or want to know.....and yes even the stuff you wish you didn't know. 

I should come with a warning label...but i'll see how this goes. Sorry, i was distracted by this other source of wonderful and socially technological lifeline called Facebook.  My sister was just announced the Head Coach of Trinity Valley Field Hockey.  Thats great for her, she misses the field, and works great with kids/students.  Yes, thats how i found out Facebook.  You know thats how everyone finds out about things now....school cancellations, team practices, parties, pop quizzes, your favorite movies, what your friend is doing at 4:32 pm while at home....i mean everything.

well before i go completely formal on my introduction, let me tell you two things that i'm not anymore.  I'm not a smoker, it's been difficult but thanks to Chantix, i've cut my habit off completely.  I"m also not fat, though i shoudn't tease, cause i was never obese, but bigger then i should be considering i'm 5'7 and 28. Those are two things that i want to get out of the way. i'll be posting daily observations on my body and share with you how effective having a L.A Fitness gym membership really is.  Also going over my diet, helping others (as i'm still on a learning curve) and also taking a lot of time to listen to other people.  This isn't just about me.  It's about everyone. I just so happen to be the one that dictates the daily blogs. Enough about me.....for now... i'll be back to share a ton of great news, funny stories, hilarious and embarrassing moments and pics, as soon as i figure out how too :)

Stay Tuned...